YEA! Hello world is right!
So this is my first post, I’m new to blogging.
I dont have a whole lot to say at the mo, but I have to start getting things down on paper… well, sort of. I am contemplating divorce and wish I had a magic wand to make it all perfectly better, but since there isn’t one, I’ll march on ahead and hope for the best. I know this will be good for me.
I’ve been looking into divorcing my husband of 13 years. It is amazing, how many feelings I’ve had to describe my relationship with this man. At first I was elated to get hitched, yet anxious and fearful for the future with this man. Then I was shocked to realize what I’d done, feelings of insecurity and disconnection followed me for months… helping me gain an amazing 50 lbs., that much weight-gain my first year alone is outrageous! Throughout the marriage I was overcome with low self-esteem and feelings of inadequacy. Now that I’ve decided to finally put an end to this: lots of mixed emotions, guilt, overwhelmed, stressed, confused…
Good thought: Earlier this year I went along to historic St. Augustine (first time there) with my daughter & classmates. It was two days of jam-packed fun (or something) visiting our nation’s oldest city in the U.S., founded in 1565! A nice memory to add to your brain every once in a while.
Insight: If we don’t have good memories (or any memories for that matter) then what *is* the point?